I Think She’s Having a Meltdown

“Losing her grace…”
–Buckcherry, “Everything”
My mother is driving, and she says, “I have a present for you at the ranch.”
“Don’t say it’s a cake because I’m not in the mood for a cake,” I say, grumpy.
“It’s not food.”
I feel instantly ill. I don’t know how I’ll force her to return a puppy.
When we pull into the [...]

Posted at 8:15 pm on November 7, 2009 | 1 comment | Filed Under: Mom, horses | read on

So, Just Pull the Trigger

Rihanna, “Russian Roulette” (If you listen to the lyrics, it’s about an abusive relationship)
Everyone takes me seriously.
“You need to take out a medical withdrawal if you can’t get your meds in ten days,” The Advisor says to me. “Stay out of school for a while until you can get some insurance.”
The meds are cheap, maybe sixty [...]

Posted at 9:21 pm on November 6, 2009 | leave a comment | Filed Under: Bipolar I Disorder, Suicide, academics, anger, depression | read on